bas kuch yaadein!!

As i was rummaging through the closet of my mind, i happened to find this on one dusty ignored shelf :)
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Intzaar mein kshitij pe ankhein bichaye,
na milta hain kisi ko kabhi kinara..
toote dil ki nakaam ummeedein,
na le paati hain kabhi kisi ka sahara..

kacchi ret ka mahel banakar,
basane chali thi main ek sapna,
per ek thandi hawa ke jhoke ne,
chin liya jo kuch tha apna...

aur kahin is toofan mein,
pyaar ke afsaane beh gaye,
magar shikwa hain toh is baat ka,
ki in labo pe unke taraane reh gaye!

Bahut kuch seekha humne,
rishton ki ehmiyat jaan li,
naadan dil ne aisi chot khaii,
ki shabdon ki bewafai pehchaan li!

khamosh dhadkan ne maan li,
jo barson se na maana tha.
dilojaan se apna jise samajhte the,
woh to hamesha se begaana tha :)

woh kya jaane sacchi mohabbat,
shayad badnaseeb hum nahi...
pyaar jaane wahi jo dard mein aansu roye,
yahan toh pal pal hain nadiyan bahii

hamesha se nikli dua e dost,
ki tumhe khushi mile ,had se pareh,
badle mein,kismat ne kuch aisa kiya,
jo koi dushman ke saath bhi naa kare

Pyaar ki ummed jagakar,
bich raaste haath chuda liya,
har pal ummeed ki kiran jagakar,
doosre hi pal rula diya...

khuda na kare, zindagi ke kisi mod per,
agar mohabbat tujhse rooth jayegi,
tab shayad kahin ek pal ke liye,
tumhe humari yaad satayegi...

kisi roz yeh kahani apni fariyad sunayegi,
chupke se aakar, us purane mausam ki yaad dilayegi...
do din ki is zindagi mein ek ranjish sada rahegi,
kisi mod pe hum mile the, yeh khalish sada dasegi!!!

im bakk n tagged !!:)

hey guys, im bakk!!! :)
n its about time i took up the tag tht "la vida loca" tagged me wth...
so here goes: the deal is i hav to write 9 weird things bout me, tag 6 more people n go n comment on each of their blogs [:D]

well u guys mite think the list wud be endless *blush* but ting tong!! the deal is 9 things ONLY...heehee
so starting off,
1)pri is extremely impulsive by nature (most of the times)n thn her ego has made her stick to many an impulsive desicions, even though she regrets making thm sometimes...sigh!
2)pri's weird sense of humour n comic timing wch has put me in many a embaressing situations at time...*blush*...
somehow manage to blurt out the weirdest of things at the wrong(est) of times:D n get everyone in splits :-/
3)pri is ultrapossesive sometimes whn it comes to her friends/loved ones even though she realises its kiddish to be so :-/
3)pri often "jhadofies" lectures on thinkin wth the mind but lets her heart take over almost all the time :-/
hmph!wht r u grinning at???
4)sometimes pri hates people wthout any valid reason or cause...n the same goes for the ppl she likes...she dosent need a reason to love or hate someone ...At times,she dosent even know thm well enough to judge thm but still she feels it her fundamental right to do so...
n thn she forms an opinion n no matter wht likes to believe tht opinion to be right, n whn it turns out to be othrwise, she goes in denial, she frets, fumes, cribs n wonders whr she'd gone wrong n swears she wont judge neone again...but somethings cant be helped n some habits never change...
so she continues forming opinions, continues judging ppl hoping she'll learn to judge right someday ...:)
5)As a doctor, she considers herself responsible for any patients suffering and agrees tht she isnt being practical in thinkin so whn her friends tell her tht...awes at the fact tht sum ppl live upto a 100 yrs whn noone wants thm to while othrs let go soo early in life...wonders at the injustice...justifies "euthenesia", argues with life...n whn she finds thr r no answers,cribs at the existence of such questions :-/
6)*ok this one will come as a real surprise to ppl who know her n her incessant chatter*
pri often locks herself n spends hours all by herself, not speakin a word, not letting a single thought cross her "othrwise soo cluttered up mind" ...nope she isnt dozing off nor is she goin to depression...:) its a normal beautiful day---yep its juss pri being weird ;p
7)She often cries to herself whn she feels hurt n let down...sometimes she dosent even know the reason why she feels tht way...the tears juss keep flowing till some "earthly form" decides to make an appearance n thn!! the "plastic grin" show beings :-/
8)she is extremely shortfused n though she loves to play the "cool dudette" all the time, she's one helluva sentimental fool :-/
also the first one to say "im sorry" if its her fault but the weird part is SHE decides whethr u deserve to know if she's bugged wth u or not...thrll be times whn ull get the "cold shoulder treatment" n u wont even know why.:-/
only plausible explanation : pri is weird!!! :-/
9)she always tells people wht exactly she feels about thm---more so if she harbours bitter/rude feelings...lol!!!irrespective of her friends feelin tht she's a real jackass to be soo transparent in this diplomatic world.!
but her logic is "if i hate thm , they should know i do...why be a hypocrite?"
I think thts cool...a lil weird but yet cool ;p...
so does she!!!

there!!! those r the first 9 weird things bout pri i can thnk bout ...though im pretty sure i or for tht matter you, can come up wth many more.;p
please feel free to contribute ...lol!!!
Now tht ive completed the tag, i wud love to tag ----chand
ekta
anand
ashish
keshi
introvert

*kudos*

happy dussehra

"HAR ADHARM PER VIJAY PAYEN...
IS DASSEHRA PER YEH KAMNA HAIN HUMARI,
HARSH AUR ULLAS SE AAPKA JIVAN SADA PARIPURN RAHE , YAHI DUA HAIN HUMARI"

HAV A GREAT TIME!!:)

heyy folks...sorry, wasent around for a while...
hav been awfully busy the last few days...n itll be the same for atleast 1 week more...life has been pretty hectic...
apologies for not replyin to ur mails n offliners...hav got a lot of blog catchin up to do as well :)
will get bak to blogging in a while...
till thn enjoy the peace n quiet (wth me not around ;p)
Till thn, miss me...
heres wishing all of u a very happy dussehra ...:)
n heyy, happy gandhi jayanti too...
gandhigiri karte rehne ka mamu...SAMJHA??? ;p

"angel"---me??? :)

Its amazing sometimes how a small thing can hav such a major impact on ur life...
Sometimes, life changes wth a fraction of a second n even before u know it ,u r a different person altogether...living a drastically changed life, very different frm the one before the "fraction of tht second"...:)
It never ceased to amaze me how ppl change soo much, how they can make sucha important decisions within a matter of minutes...
would they regret it later?
would they feel they never really wanted it?
would they think of it as a bad deal?
Most ppl who know me would know tht i think with my "heart" most of the times...n maybe thts the reason tht ive succumbed to a lotta bad deals in life...maybe made some wrong desicions too...but never really thought of it as wrong, cos i for one dont like to regret things i'd cherished (once upon a time)...
Besides i always believe tht in life thr r no wrong desicions...they r juss desicions, whethr they r wrong or right is purely subjective...its juss something u think is best for urself n for the others involved in any given situation or circumstance...so where does the question of it being a bad or wrong decision come??
People who dont know me too well think tht i usually listen to my mind...:)
i wish!!!...but thn again,sometimes mebe thts the best thing to do... oops ,sorry--thts me digressing!
So we were speakin bout how a small thing can change lives...
Someone sent me a e-card yest wch said "thanks for being my angel"...well tht did bring about a strange sorta satisfaction, the kind u experience whn someone thinks of u as a important part of life...weirder still i had absolutely no idea how i'd helped this person n why i was being called his "angel" n tht confused me all the more...:(
Later in the evening, i did manage to catch "mr X" online and ask hiim about it...n thn it struck me tht here was a friend who i'd not been speakin 2 for a long time now...he had moved to anothr town n we had drifted apart...no contact, no mails n juss a few offliners once in a while...we spoke about old times and only thn i realised how a small thing said can make such a significance in a persons life...
Whn i asked him bout the angel bit, he reminded me of how i had helped him out whn he was goin thru a bad phase...n tht he could never thank me enough for it :)
More than him being happy, i was happy...was happy tht atleast i'd been of help to someone , someone who valued the lil assurance id given in sucha a big way :)
In life, we all hav such "angels" in the form of friends, who keep helping us spread our wings , helpin us learn to fly, helpin us to be angels for someone else...
N tht set me thinkin,
sometimes we become angels n we dont even know it :)

*smiles*

"LAGE RAHO..."

Today was one of those funfilled, laughter packed sundays...
I started off being the lazy pri tht i usually am on weekends ...no sunday mornin has ever seen me waking up before 9 (wch in itself isnt soo bad is it?)
The day started off with a surprise phone call from a close friend who announced his return which was scheduled not before the coming friday morning!
So tht in a way was a pleasant surprise...and i always like it when people seem genuinely happy to come back home esp from a foreign land...(blame it on the patriot in me)...the rest of the day was pretty fun...
A couple of my friends and me got together to watch the much awaited "lage raho munnabhai" and needless to say , it was awesome...
Sanjay dutt has as usual done full justice to the character and i must say tht guy has turned out to be a fine actor...i always liked him right frm his "saajan" and "khalnayak" days and knew he wud make it big someday...he rocks at comedy n all u guys who hav watched "munnabhai MBBS" will know wht im sayin:)
Arshad warsi aka "circuit" is a riot...n i couldent help wish i had atleast one friend like him in life who wud agree wth me even whn im at my craziest worst and would fight anyone who dare go against me even if i am looney enough to say tht cannibles are strictly vegetarians or uh..um..uh..tht brad pitt proposed his undying love for me or ummm...tht people can actually survive the gobimanchurian i (claim to)cook without makin those funny faces while eatin it or throwin up within 15mins thereafter ...:( sigh!


Vidhya balan looks gorgeous and has proved tht she can not only stun ppl by her "parineeta" appearance but also amaze thm wth her "modern girl" personality...
The rest of the characters ,boman irani, diya mirza,jimmy shergil, abhishek bacchan (in his 2mins role) hav also done full justice to their respective parts...ohh and not to forget our very own "dilip prabhavalkar" aka "bapu" has played a almost real life role of gandhiji...
Apart frm the fun element, jokes n hilarious dialogues, the movie also sends a message through...it speaks bout the gandhian theory of nonviolence and how it is always victorious in the end...it shows how reverse therapy never fails to work...:).
It also stresses on how we people of the so called modern age hav forgotten the small things in life wch actually make all the difference...the respect for elders, the gratitude for our parents upbringing...
Another thing i liked bout the film is how murli manages to bring about awareness about the superstitious crap wch many ppl are soo very easily vulnerable to...(ekta kapoor!! go watch it NOWW)...
Thrs one scene in which gandhiji tells murli to go and tell his lady love who he actually is before she gets to know it frm boman...how true!!!
whats more painful than getting to know ur love has cheated you, is getting to know it from someone else...
But in the end our warmhearted,sweetnatured murli does succeed in getting his lady love---thanks to no other than "bapu" himself :)
In a nut shell---its a awsome movie, hilarious to the core, light and fun to watch...n yess it does keep u askin for more (unlike some movies whr u juss wait n wait n wait for the cliched ending -(wch comes after a good 3and a half hrs)only because u paid 150 bucks...tsk tsk!! bet ull know wht im referrin to...sigh! neways)
This movie managed to get us all smiling ad the smile lasted for a long time even after the movie ended...thanks to the company of friends who kept mimicking circuit's famed"bhai tu tansion nahi lene ka aa" dialogue...:D
The day ended by a long walk on the beach,eating golgappas, bhel and makka at the stalls , and long conversations...
And yess it IS true! its these small things in life which make all the difference!! :)

and life goes on!!

Once again, i find myself at the crossroads of life!!
Why doesent life cease to confuse me even though ive given up on it??
Why does it still come up with new surprises and makes them even more obvious exactly when im tryin to ignore thm??
Why does it put forward choices wch i dont feel like making anymore n yet dont feel like losing??
True! life gets all the more complex wth each coming day n the confusions never cease...
Sometimes i wonder, rnt we even given the right to make the smallest decisions of our lives?? nothin seems to be in our hands, in our control...yet we often like to believe we can do something about it...
A simple arguement brought about many a realisations today...a simple conversation made me think a lot about the way i am wth the people around me...maybe all im doing is neglecting those who caree soo much for those who dont at all...those were the exact words n they stung!! stung bad! ...
because somewhr i knew they might be true!
Asif things werent enough, i was lectured on how i hav this superinferiority complex tht makes me feel tht i cant deserve any good and how i doubt life whn it brings pleasant surprises along...yeah right!!Next il'l be told im crazy n ahud be admitted in some asylum...hmph!
Life these days is all about arguements..how i shud get rid of my trust issues , how i should believe in love,.perhaps also..easter bunny .tooth fairy..n santaclaus too...(no?? err i thought the rest wud follow suit..lol!!)
And thn if ive changed soo much, why do i still care? why does it still hurt to see a close friend goin away? why does it still sting when someone proposes to me n i hav to say tht i probably cant tk it more than a good friendship??why is thr still a probably?? why do i still get misty eyed when i watch those "ultra corny" movies wch always manage to hav a happy ending??why dont i no longer believe in happy endings??? why has my faith in "good things happen to good ppl" dwindled soo much??

Why does it hit when my family says ive changed?? why dont i hav anything to say when ppl ask me for explanations, reasons and advice...even though i did hate it soo much myself once upon a time?? why do i go back to being the old pri,vulnerable, naive,ultrasensitive sometimes n thn have to remind myself tht im not the same anymore n tht ive changed???
AND thn yet again, why do i still wonder bout life...

sigh!
juss goin with the flow, takin each day as it comes...
juss hopin i dont get swept away too far...:)

Best time of the year :)

The loud noise of firecrackers, blaring of loudspeakers, the beating of dhols, the singin of aartis n yet no frowning neighbours,no complaining grownups ---yep folks, afterall its ganesh chathurthi!!:)


karanji's,
modaks,
welcomin ganpatiji into the house,
the gettin together n singin aartis,
girls puttin mehendi on their hands,
the competing for who'll sing the most aartis wthout lookin in the book even once,
the shopping for new clothes,
the "lets see how many modaks u can polish off" record;),
girls in pretty sarees or formal attire and guys in formal kurtas all lookin their traditional best,
goin to see atleast 5 sarvajanik ganpati on the last day,
remindin ppl not to see the moon n keeping a count of how many actually do so juss cos they happened to be reminded...lol *the case of the forbidden fruit*;p
the taking care not to see it urself :(
the putting up of the "matoli" (for ppl who dont know wht tht means, its a part of the ritual for decorating the specified space above the idol wth a variety of fruits...er...cant explain the exact thing on here...still want to know?? come over ;p),
the waiting for the "panchkhadya" n eating it more as lunch than as "prasad"...;p,
the "trying to help mom" attempt n getting kicked out of the kitchen cos u r eating more than wht u r helping make...heehee,
but thn, as usual time flies exactly whn u dont want it to...n before u know it,its visarjan time...:(
I still remember weeping during visarjan whn i was a kid...those days it was more of all the fun comin to an end than missing ganpatibappa not being around...now im highly amused whn my kiddo cousins do the same ...lol!!!
But then i try explainin to thm the very same thing my mom used to explain to me as a kid ,tht "ganpatiji has other people in othr worlds to take care of n he has to visit them too...so no matter even though he is goin back home, he will still be watching us and taking care of us" *smiles*
Tht used to make me smile thn but after a while, i used to torture my mom wth questions like "why cant he tk care of them stayin here at our place" and "dosent he like the food here or MEE??"...now tht i think of it,i was quite a brat!! ;p n i wonder if tht "fishing for compliments" is congenital ...lol!!!
But kids nowadays hav a lot more to ask n their questions never end...so do manage cookin up stories like "he will visit in a day or two" but dont think they fall for it sigh! cos the bawling dosent stop...tsk tsk, makes me love myself even more after lookin at these brats...mom!! r u reading?? ;p never gave u such tantrums did i?? always simmered down after one or two modaks ;)n thn again did really believe in tht theory of urs...
err ..., i still do *smiles*



so ending this post wth lots of sweet wishes for a bright, happy and lucky future...



HERE'S WISHING,

A VERY HAPPY GANESH CHATHURTHI" TO ALL U LOVELY PEOPLE OUT THERE! :)




GANPATI BAPPA MORYAA!!!

MANGALMURTI MORYAA!! :)

TAGGED!!!

Ive been tagged...(for reasons unknown, ive been told not to disclose the identity of the blogger who's tagged me :) shhh...some ppl want their blogs to remain a secret , cant wonder why cos i aint too far behind)
Anyways since i dint have anything better to do, i thought mite as well giv it a try...so here goes :

its called the "I DUNNO WHT TO CALL IT" tag...heehee

1) I am thinking about
mmm...u dont deserve to know!!! ;p

2) I said
"sorry" but am feeling real bad about it.hmph!..it wasent my fault *all defensive*

3)I want to
just run away from the place and state im in right now ...sigh!giving "HAWAI" a thought...
I also want to go bungee jumping frm a height of over a thousand feet *obviously wth my eyes closed*

4) I wish
u wud just go away n stop being curious about stupid questions, the answers to which u cant do anything about...

5)I miss
old times...dosent the title of my blog give u a hint???
besides tht i miss my school friends, the getting drenched in the rains and sitting with the AC blast on, the cutting chai n samosas wch were a famous speciality at the dhaba of our HSSC yrs, the friends ive lost along the way---some for reasons known n some unknown :), the funtimes wth cousins during ganesh chaturthi ,the teenage innocence n gullibility ....well the list is a long one, lets not get further into it...this "tag" is supposed to make me feel better isnt it??? *raises an eyebrow*

5)I hear
a lotta people complaining , whining and cribbing er..about pri *blush* ;p

6)I wonder
have stopped wondering...

7)I need
my pc, my friends........................................................................hmm can i tell u what i dont need instead???


8)I regret
nothing...
regretting something would only make things lose their value n afterall life is never about regrets...n if u live it right (wch is again a subjective thing),u dont need to have any ...:)

9)I dance

err...
sorry ppl, but i have two left feet n thn again lose my inhibitions only amongst close friends (n thn i dance like a farmished cannible)...so u wont normally see pri dancing away to music ;p

10) I cry
gawd!! do i HAVE to answer tht??? *embarressed*
i cry like a baby who's candy has juss been snatched ...heehee...thts whn i want everyone to know im howling err crying i mean :P
At other times---*chooses not to answer tht* :)

11)Im not always
purrfecct!! but almost always ;p

12)I make wth my hands
huh!! whts tht supposed to mean???

13)I write
in a futile attempt to get over life
for fun *sometimes*
because i lovvvveeee to write---period! :!

14)I confuse
myself (most of the times)

15) I should try
not to make impulsive desicions
to stop being as vulnerable
to start acting my age---im usually acting "extremes" nowadays ...*sigh*

16)I should finish
this tag real fast (even if it means tht i hav to write crap.heehee)cos...its beginnin to bore me!!

17) I know
tht u guys must hav pretty much fallen asleep by now

18) I am
er...wht i am...n dont think tht can change even if u want me to ...

19)and finally
i hav finished off with this...yaayyyn hopefully ull have survived it ...

20)I tag
whoever wants to be tagged