I wont be around for a while....am leaving the country to an undisclosed location...phew!! (because im afraid that the 'hitmen' employed by veens to track me down, might just start taking their job too seriously...for those of you who arnt aware of what im talking, read here and especially here)

il'l be in india though only for the next 48 hours,changing disguises!!
will resume blogging and catch up with all u guys when i get back...
till then wont be having access to anything---neither net nor cellphone...

hope its good enough there to keep me away from missing u all (though im sure nothing can ever be good enough for that...would miss blogsville anyways)
will be back soon...miss me lots!! :)

take care!

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sometimes i think im still living in a bubble...and im scared that one day its going to burst as all bubbles do and that day my whole universe will come crashing down--in the worst possible way!!

the 'decent' proposal...

how did u/would u propose to the one u love?? :)

some recent updates!!

---got about going for my monthly trip to the bookstore a lil later than usual this time...but did manage to catch hold of 'the 3 mistakes of my life' by chetan bhagat (on the third day of its release) and 'unaccustomed earth' by jhumpa lahiri...
while i havent yet finished on 'shantaram', i couldent resist starting on 'the 3 mistakes of my life' simply because its a small book...
somehow i find chetan bhagats books kinda fake...esp the way he introduces the story(i had a similar impression about 'ONATCC' when i'd read it)

yet i bought this one because there was a big hype about it and also because his books are light reads which i can finish fast...

hmpf!! all i can say is buying this book was 'the second mistake of my life' (buying 'ONATCC' being the first)..should have borrowed them from the library instead :-/
but i console myself with the belief that has been inbuilt in me since my childhood days (all thanks to mom and dad)--that buying 'books' can NEVER be a waste!
Anyways i finished this one in one night flat (one of the reasons for this was i was in mumbai at that time and had no internet around and while the 'night life' in mumbai was rocking away to glory with blaring music and flashy lights, i chose to curl up snug in my bed with chetan bhagats new book!
ohh the other reason being amidst all the chiches, i enjoyed the book in parts...typical bollywood masala kinda book..guess CB has a film in mind this time around too...ul'l do know ONATCC is going to be made into a movie dont ul'l?? yep with our very own sallu bhai and plastic katrina in the star cast along with some others...sigh!)

havent started with 'unaccustomed earth' and i wont be able to start on it till my next trip to mumbai as i forgot to get it back here with me...i only hope i havent lost it on the way though :((


---i went for this marathi natak (play) named 'zavai mhaza bhala' on sunday and must say i really enjoyed it...vikram gokhale was awesome (as usual) but the star who hogged the limelight was the young artist 'advait dadarkar' playing 'chinya'(short for chinmay in the play
though the play reminded me of 'the father of the bride' at many points, yet must say it was very well scripted and it was fun to see almost the entire older generation in the audience (including my mom and dad) nod in agreement to all the emotions potrayed by vikram gokhale :)
go and catch it..especially with your parents, if possible...


---have taken up a challenge with a stupid blogger friend (its 'veens' if u havent guessed by now...heehee..yea yea..im getting back..because she called me 'stupid' too..hmpf!!) of losing 3kgs before the first of june :p
yes right!!--we working towards 'size 0'...so save ur breath and dont try to be sarcastic in ur comments...hmpf!! :-/
ohh motivation is always welcome...there is always room for that :D

mom is not too happy about the weight thing because she thinks there are chances that i may go paranoid about it...heehee
someone told her about 'anorexia nervosa' once and since then she has been looking with suspicion at everyone who wants to lose weight...
yeah, she is very happy that ive resorted to healthy food and have once again cut down on eat outs and junk food...
but at the same time,she's aware of what an 'extremist' i can be and that kinda worries her :p
she has already started with her '3kgs in 15 days is not healthy at all' sermons *rolling eyes*
and to make matters worse, she just read in the news today that john abraham fainted on the sets because of his strenous diet regime....
i mean, gimme a break ma! he is trying to lose SIXTEEN kgs in 2 months...im stopping at 3 in 15 days! :-/

parents i tell u!! when u want to do something they stop u...when ur not doing anything, they complain...phew! ive given up on understanding their species...really! :-/


---im planning to put a hold on 'in a nutshell' from now on...atleast for some time...

for one, its already taking a backseat as compared to 'nostalgic moments' and 'raindrops and roses'...
secondly,ive decided there are days i dont want my entire life in print simply because there is too much happening and not everything is worth going through all over again *rolling eyes*
thirdly, i dunno...maybe the enthusiasm (like they say) is just fading out...


---ok one other thing i would like to tell everyone (and by that i mean those few on my gtalk list) is that-"just because i appear online on gtalk all the time, DOES NOT mean im around...so please dont assume misunderstand"
ive had enough problems regarding this over the last few days which unfortulately have still not sorted out...
so please get this clear---i wont dont ignore my friends...period!!

ohh and just incase u cant read the message printed on the first page of my personal diary, let me write it here for you---it makes a lot of sense...

"life is a book and you are its author.Believing in your own intuition and instincts is key.
Asking yourself new and empowering questions and writing your thoughts and observations will aloow you the freedom to take both small steps and great strides.
there is not one name for happiness, contentment or caring.
Let the words that u write here serve as your own key to life"

and that is exactly why i blog... :)

thats enough for now...over and out!!

me---just a figment of your imagination!! :)

this scribble is dedicated to all my blog readers...especially to 'meltingstone' who presently is really bugged at me because he thinks im addicted to the status of an 'enigma'! :)

sometimes i speak volumes but u understand nothing....
sometimes i speak nothing and yet u try...
u attempt to gauge me, to know me better each day...
sometimes u end up confusing urself about me...
there are times u take for granted that u know me too well...
but sometimes u just dont care to understand...
frustrated, u call me an enigma and i smile!

i speak so much but yet it isnt clear...
there is a fact in every fantasy i write...
and a fantasy in every fact...
the thin line between the two u try to see,
but burning eyes and a distorted picture is all u get...
u see a part of me in the broken hearted lass...
u see a lil of me in the juvenile rebel...
sometimes i appear to be all sorted out...
sometimes u think there could be no bigger mess...
u see a lil of me everywhere...
and still i leave u doubting--is it me or just ur imagination?
frustrated, u call me an enigma and i smile!

at times i dont answer ur questions...
sometimes i reply too vague...
confusing u at every step-i play a silent game...
u see me in the patient lover...
u see me in the broken addict...
u see the bubbly enthusiast in me...
u see the stubborn kid too...
at times u see the mature all knowing agony-aunt...
sometimes u think im a dreamer...
at other times, u wonder if i've given up on it...
each day u confuse urself a lil more,
as i leave a part of me behind in every work of mine...
not knowing what to believe,u try to understand...
frustrated, u call me an enigma and i smile!

am i me or just a part of you?
this is a game which has no rules...
i am but just a vision and i keep changing...
u are the constant on which i depend...
do i exist or is it just ur imagination??
am i really me or just what u think of me?
frustrated, u call me an enigma and i smile!

the game will end someday when i grow tired...
the game will stop someday when u leave...
till then ul'l see me in every word of mine...
ul'l be skeptical of every line...
and i leave it to u to paint a picture of me...
u know that i am but an incomplete puzzle,
and yet u try to find the missing pieces...
those pieces which perhaps will never be found...
u stare at the voids in the picture,
hoping ul'l complete it some day...
frustrated, u call me an enigma and i smile!

UPDATED---thanks to 'scribbler' for this wonderful song...it speaks a lot for me :) (if i havent said enough already!)

the chapter called 'you'!!

an empty feeling in me resides...
a hollowness i feel inside...
some silent regrets cut me deep,
and all i have are those memories to keep...

a sprained neck from sitting up all night,
remembering you and all our silly fights...
my young heart was made of glass they grumble,
just one scratch was enough for it to crumble...

i wish we could relive it all again,
sans all the hurt all the pain...
maybe i would change a thing or two...
just maybe u'd realise how much i love you...

wish i could be there by ur side...
wish i could be there to ease the pain...
wish i could sleep in your arms...
wish we could hug in the rain...

all this love, i feel for you,
but i know ur just too far away...
and here i am, with tear stained eyes,
just trying to live by each coming day...

so many things have been left unsaid...
so many feelings lie unread...
but u told me u dint have anything to say,
the day i asked if i should stay away...

and ive just been waiting,from on then...
i know i shouldent, to hope would be wrong...
i pray u stay happy even it means u forget me,
because memories can be painful if stay for too long.

mine is an alleged average existence,
but without you, futile it all seems...
the chapter never closes, the book never ends,
as u continue to haunt me in my dreams!!

PROMPT: neck, average, scratch from 3ww

:)

"If one inspired innocent loving soaring dreamer believes in a universe of joy and light and perfect being, and if she's wrong and dies, its not the dreamer who's been foolish, but the universe..."

ahhh someone sides with me afterall...!!

popcorn with bhoothnath and pri!!

AB (senior) rocks once again in his latest venture 'bhoothnath'...
I dint have too many viewer expectations to this movie and half heartedly tagged along to the movie hall once again without reading any reviews...
yeah i know...some guts after the recent disaster 'tashan'! :-/
anyways u ought to know by now that urs truly loves to take risks...and besides this one starred my fav 'daddy long legs' BIG B...
so that was enough to get me going!

but much to my pleasant surprise,'bhoothnath' is a wellmade mix of emotions and humour...wch is a big relief after 'tashan' (wch u must have noticed i dint even dare to mention on here because i was too afraid to live the puke-inducing experience again)

'bhoothnath' is about 7 year old 'banku' and his friendship with the ghost of 'kailashnath' , who once owned the house he is living in with his mom....
'bhoothnath' (as addressed by banku) is ultrapossesive about his house and has been guarding it for years and scaring away whoever tries to inhabit it...
juhi chawla has played the role of a modern day mother who dosent believe in the 'spare the rod and spoil the child' philosophy and yet somehow 'banku' turns out quite adorably alright...
the story starts off with a funny and enjoyable relationship banku shares with bhoothnath and leaves everyone laughing at their childish pranks....
'satish shah' and 'rajpal yadav' have done good justice to their roles and lived upto their status as comic actors...
u cant help but grin at AB as he gets all psyched out when banku tells him that he cant be a ghost because his mother told him that ghosts dont exist...

just when u think that the director 'vivek sharma' has made this movie keeping only the kiddo audience in mind, u are introduced to a heart wrenching flashback which brings out the magic of 'baghban' alive...
there are certain scenes which no matter what cant stop ur lacrymal glands from going hyperactive...and yes please make sure u carry tissues along...
nobody warned me and i had to use my 'popcorn salty' hands to wipe off huge teardrops flowing down my cheek :-/ (my eyes were burning by the time i reached home..sigh!blame it on the popcorn!)

the movie also speaks about friendship which is a bond which can be between ppl of any age and how certain people enter our lives as 'angels' just to teach us somethings about it...some lessons we ought to remember throughout...even when these 'angels' are not around to remind us...because even though it might seem that they leave us someday, they are going to be there with us forever...connected---heart to heart! :)

the music by vishal shekhar though, is not all that catchy..but guess nobody expects songs from 'bhoothnath' to be hummed for generations to come...so all in all they are sequential and the lyrics are pretty nice :)
couldent help wishing SRK to have been given a slightly longer role though...sigh!
except for a coupla flaws,the movie is well done and leaves u with a misty eyed smile when u leave the hall!

my personal rating: 7.5/10

special applause: to AB for being able to express emotions without even using a single word in some scenes...made me realise how great an actor he is...
the dialogue writer should be given special credit too as there are certain lines which just pull at ur heart strings and refuse to let go...

my opinion: go watch it guys!!