signs--do they exist??

do you believe in signs?

the small signals which subtly hint whether things are to be or not to be...
the ones we tend to ignore deliberately at times even if they are right there--staring at us...
the ones everyone around you can so clearly see and yet seem all blurred to you...
the ones which you know will invite a hundred wagging fingers and i-told-you-so's in the end...
the ones which constantly play and replay on your mind sometimes just freezing everything around you...
the ones you know you should acknowledge and yet ignore...

im not talking about gut instinct here..im just talking about signs..

are you afraid of missing them?
do you dread what could happen if you ignore them?

and then, how do we know they are actually signs?
couldn't a sign warning you of failure, be just something your heart fears?
couldn't a sign hinting of happiness, be just something your heart desires?
what if we are interpreting them all wrong?
there is no handbook explaining how they should be interpreted, is there?
so isn't it finally just a game of guts and instincts---of trust and faith?

and then the more important question--how much do you trust your faith?

do you believe in signs?

and the truth shall set u free...

i watch the busy street from across my balcony window and it reminds me so much of life..

a million thoughts are playing havoc in my head...

Have you ever felt life moving too fast? so fast that you cant figure out what exactly is happening??
so fast that everything seems almost like a blur, like a hazy vision which will just disappear if you try to reach it in an attempt to make it clearer.
have you ever felt comfortable in the mist overhanging your life?
have you ever felt safe in the dust covering the pages of each chapter written and every chapter yet to be written?
have you felt at peace with the inertia of the moment?

and how much longer does one continue with these conscious excuses to attain happiness out of resistance to the humdrum of life, from fear of losing the security in the normal routine pattern--however discomforting it may be??

the thoughts are still playing havoc in my head...


as i look into the distance, the traffic lights merge with the stillness of the night as if set out to blind me--the silent spectator--as if trying to say something..

i hear life speaking to me...
"you have no right to just stand and view me from a safe distance..sneak out of that safety blanket--step forward and take a closer look..you keep saying that i dont offer second chances dont u? but you are wrong--its me who might be the one needing a second chance and you, the adamant fool who isn't allowing me one"

and in that one fragile undisturbed moment, i realise the undeterred strength of a stubborn fact that can very well be the harshest yet greatest truth in the world...

and i guess its about time---life is waiting!!