April 08, 2006

IN A NOSTALGIC TRANCE

Was listenin to one of my favs tracks....from the movie "lamhe"
goes like this...

yeh lamhe , yeh pal hum,
barson yaad karenge...
yeh mausam chala gaya toh,
hum fariyaad karenge ...:)

brought back a lot of memories and made me rummage through my closet to find this piece i'd written quite some time back...(yeah yeah, i know...some ppl hav weirdplaces assigned to store away their creativity...open my closet n ull find scraps of paper wth my most personal compositions written...strwen about amidst the mess of clothes )
yeah its true...times change, ppl change, situations change..but memories never...!!! :)




MEMORIES...


Memories of the past so good,
forget them all i wish i could.
True happiness i thot i'd found,
now its only memories to wch im bound.

Nostalgia floods me everyday,
as if to tell me it has sumthin to say.
Each time i feel i shudent hold on any longer,
i feel those memories gettin stronger.

The ghosts of yesteryears refuse to leave,
a web of dreams ive begun to weave,
and though i know it wont do me any good,
leave it all behind me i never really could.

Why am i being haunted this way?,
whn those memories hav nothin to say...
Why am i tempted to live in the past?,
whn i know tht it can never last...:(

The futures yet to see, but the presents mine,
and i hope someday everythin to be fine.
To face todays reality , i must dare,
coz livin in a fantasy is never really fair.

Everytime i try snappin out of the trance,
from reality i turn away my glance.
Every step away from it , i take infront,
my heart cant take it, i can feel the brunt!

My mind can never take my heart as a friend,
its a conflict thtll never end.
Both contradict each other in every say,
but hell! its always me who has to pay...!


memories are somethin forever...n however much you try to break loose from them...u can never succeed....or MAYBE u juss don wanna try hard enough cos u r scared tht u juss might...;)

29 comments:

Anonymous said...

well..me first again.
seems like nocturnal habits is quite universal among all docs...

and u write wonderful stuff...u r maybe in the wrong profession...

and about spending time on the net...well..let me rem..i have spent whole nights in cybercafes and the cybercafe wala used to keep it open only for me...lol..
now this was way back in 99-2000.

what r ur futures plans ?

Anonymous said...

Hopped in thru rohit's blog...

***memories are somethin forever...n however much you try to break loose from them...u can never succeed....or MAYBE u juss don wanna try hard enough cos u r scared tht u juss might...;)***This is so very true.

Anonymous said...

Well...Well...Very True...Wherever we go, we carry the memories of the past...Be it good or bad...Its not an illusion, but its what makes the heart pleasant at time of difficulties and perils...

Very well written...And the poem is literally awesome...

Fantastic Piece of Work there...

Princess said...

"Each time i feel i shudent hold on any longer,
i feel those memories gettin stronger."


Really True.
Gr8 Poem. Nice verses.

Ashish Gupta said...

brain v/s heart!! *sigh*

I also have pretty bad exp. with conflicts between the two. But mostly listen to my head ;) hehe

Pri said...

@ vicky kothari
well ...yeah i guess so...but docs rsupposed tosleep less neways rnt they??;)...so mebe its good for me...lol!!
heyy n noo...creative writin is juss a passion...it cud never take the place of a full time career for me...dont tell me u wud quit ur job if u were offered "writin" as a option...lol!!besides i dont believe i write tht well ;)...thanks for the compliment neways :D
woww...thn u r much more of a net person than i am...cos i wudet go to a cyber cafe even if i was chargednothin for it...im wayy too lazzy for tht *yawn*...
well er...future plans...woh toh internship ke baad hi decide karungi...believe in takin each day at a time...wish me luck! :)

@ southpaw
hey thanks for droppin by "nostalgic moments"...rohit ka blogroll mere kuch to kaam aaya *grin*...

@ vicky

thanks vicky :)...its juss a honest attempt of the heart...

***...Its not an illusion, but its what makes the heart pleasant at time of difficulties and perils..***

hmmm...well yaa...but at times they juss make it all the more difficult to go on...
but guess memories are the only association we hav wth the past n sometimes they juss hav to be cherished...:)


@ aizwaikcha

thanks for appreciatin...:)

@ ashish
*** also have pretty bad exp. with conflicts between the two. But mostly listen to my head ;)***

we all try to do tht sometimes...but guess its easier said than done...isnt it? :)

Anonymous said...

THe devil is in nostalgic mood now and is missing all his fellow Devils..

''Everytime i try snappin out of the trance,
from reality i turn away my glance''

Devil is going Devilalnd now...

adios

Jackal said...

so ture some memories never leave.....nice poem pri.......

Anonymous said...

My mind can never take my heart as a friend,
its a conflict thtll never end.

aaaaaaaaaaaaah so true

Going to something similar at the moment so kinda struck a chord :)

Kepp churning the wonderful stuff!

Anirudh 'Lallan' Choudhry said...

hey nice and simple poem this.and so touching at the same time.....bout memories i wrote i last night...

guzri wo har raat odhi yaad chaadar maine thi..
phir bhi kyun main jaane jaade bhar thithurti rahi..

Keshi said...

Nostalgic yet painful post for me Pri...u write beautifully and so cleverly that hits all the places in my soul quite hard and deep...


**however much you try to break loose from them...u can never succeed

thats true...I try to erase one memory of a painful morning...and I never can...and another night I wont to erase forever...but it wont...it just wont. Looks like the bad memories r the hardest to forget...why?

Keshi.

Ekta said...

Hey,
Now u got me nostalgic too!
Used to love that number--it says the crude reality of life so beautifully!
Moments never stay-and memories never go away!

Pri said...

@ the biggest devil around

ohh ...so my poem has managed to do the impossible...has finally managed to strike some emotion outta the devil ;p...
hope u and ur fella devils liked it...heehee

@ southpaw
thtsmile can say a million things *smiles*

tk care pal

@ jackal

thanks jackal and
welcome to "nostalgic moments"...:)

@ chandni
thanks chands, u seem to be goin thru a lotta nostalgic moments too lately...:)

cheers to the memories we both hav...
*raises a glass*

@ anirudh
nice lines anirudh!!...ur own??..waitin for the entire composition :)


@ ss
thanks ss :) tht was sweet...

@ keshi
i juss voice out my feelins keshi...guess we goin thru similar times :)...n afterall who dosent hav memories...??
who dosent want to let go..?? (at one point of time im sure everyone faces similar situations)...
its juss the magnitude of pain n hurt tht differs...guess some ppl like us brood too long over it n so it keeps "hauntin" us from time to time :)...but guess thts us...so cheer up!!

***Looks like the bad memories r the hardest to forget...why?***

r they??...or is it the good memories we hav wch hav turned bitter??...wht hurts more keshi?
i think its the sweet memories of the past wch keeps comin bak to us and hauntin us cos they r no longer the present and we know tht they r nothin but a distant "memory" now...
sometimes bad memories are easier to get over than good ones...*smiles*
wht do u think?:)

Pri said...

@ ekta

heyy ...saw ur comment rite after i posted my reply...so heres this space esp for u :)
well i guess im becomin rather well known for makin ppl nostalgic ...lol!!...kinda developin this knack of draggin ppl in the same mood im goin thru..:(...sorry for being a spoilsport sometimes :(
heyy btw..havent heard tht track...who is it by??

Anonymous said...

Pri..
i am a lazy person too.
but then spent my college yrs in a hostel...so had to move my butt at times..

so where r u doing mbbs from ?

Anonymous said...

@ Pri: Yeah yeah..its all related!!
May be will tell u someday over beer and chicken tikka!!! Aaaaaaaaaah I miss India!

There I go again!!!!! :D

Anand said...

Hey pri,
Wow!This number was so groovy and soothing..something so earthy about this song
Have'nt heard it in a long time and now its running in my head!

Pri said...

@ vicky kothari
well yeah...hostel life mein karna padta hain...but thts the fun part of being a hostellite isnt it?:)

@ chandni
yaa sure chandni...kabhi baithte hain na...
khoob jamega rang jab mil baithenge teen yaar ---aap , main aur chikken tikka....lol!!! ;p

@ anand

wht number anand??*confused*
this is my personal composition and im sure no composer is as inspired by me to copy it heehee....the same goes for me...
ekta also was speakin of a "number" sumthin...pls specify...wud like to know wht the confusion is about...:)

Pri said...

@ anand and ekta
ohh u talkin bout "lamhe" theme song is it??? *blush blush*...well thts my personal fav 2 :)...
hav u heard the one from "yaadein"...
***baatein bhool jaati hain,
yaadein yaad aati hain...
yeh yaadein kisi dilon jaanam ke,
chale jaane ke baad aati hain...
yaadein ...bas yaadein!!! ***

*smiles*

Keshi said...

***...guess some ppl like us brood too long over it n so it keeps "hauntin" us from time to time

absolutely :):) u r so right..hehehe...

And yeah u r right again abt the good memories haunting us...so true! It's the absence of those good times/events that make us bitter now...wow ur such a great analyst Pri!

Keshi.

Ekta said...

pri!
duh!!..yeah lamhe number sweety!...
and yeah know the other one too..but somehow like lamhe one loads!

Ar Ar Ar Arrrrr said...

woh lamhe...
woh baate...
koi na jaane...
yeh kaise baate...
barsaate...woh bheeegi bheegi raate...

I dont know why am I typing this..but it just popped in ma mind...

Yes its true that memories stick by till a person suffers from memory loss...nothing can be done afta that..

Btw, am still feeling happy that you felt nice afta talking to me on YM...

GOD BLESS YOU and AMERICA at the same time!!!

SeePearrl said...

beautiful lines there :)


thanks for dropping by!

Anirudh 'Lallan' Choudhry said...

yeah pri its mine...and for the whole composition...u can speak 2 me on mightyrudh@yahoo.co.in..try addin me...*smiles*

Neha said...

me getting very nostalgic these days too :) abt to leave college na..

Pri said...

@ keshi
thanks keshi :)...but its more about sharing experiences...afterall u can analyse best wht uve gone through before rite? :)
tk care

@ ekta
heehee...i got tht rather late...lol!! am a lil slow these days...sigh!
heyy n i preferthe "lamhe" num too...netime :)...its beautiful n does bring back a lotta memories...
woh mausam chale jaate hain aur hum fariyaad karte rehte hain..shayad isikanaam zindagi hain
*smiles*

@ arz000n
yepsbuddy..i like tht song too...but i preferthe old "lamhe" song more...
n yaait was nice speakin to u tht day...but hello!! dont stay on cloud 9 for a long time...mebe the next time i speak to u , ull be dragged to ground zero level...
lol!! thts me...unpredictable...juss kiddin pal ;p.
n heyy whts wth "saving america"...who said i reside thr...lol!!!

@ whiteforest
thanks pal!...its nice to see u on "nostalgic moments"...:)

@ anirudh
yep sure...will add u soon enough...but thn again ...dont usually chat much...u cud mail me at "nostalgicmoments@gmail.com"
neverthless i would love to hear ur composition :)
tk care...
*smiles*

@ neha
***getting very nostalgic these days too :) abt to leave college na.. ***

wowww!! nows the time to collect all those memories...so tht many yrs frm now, whn u look back, theyll still get bak tht smile on ur face...:)
happy nostalgia thn ;)

Ar Ar Ar Arrrrr said...

I just like to bless AMERICA...wheneva Im in Cloud 9

:)

Anonymous said...

when do u plan to break out of nostalgia ?

Maverick said...

Gr8 way to comprehend nostalgia....too gud...keep it up