October 07, 2007

juss some updates--for the record...

Life continues to play games leaving me with a lot of things on my mind lately...
Its kinda weird to know someone who was always around is not around anymore and worse still is bugged with u and juss wont try to understand...
I know ive been stupid...extremely stubborn at times and adamant and strong headed for maybe a lotta wrong reasons...but i guess i stretched it a bit too far this time...
The confidence tht nobody can stay angry at me for long has been brutally proved wrong as i leave yet another message on the answerin machine...
somehow i know this time too it will go unattended...

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some other issues creeping up now and thn has led me retalliating a bit too often these days...
i do realise ive got to be more patient when it comes to these...but believe me, when it comes to some ppl, patience is really a virtue...they juss keep nagging u exactly on the things u dont want to be nagged about...sigh!

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Realisations have always come a bit too late as far as im concerned...but whn i eventually do realise, theres no turning back...
Its crazy but i have realised many a things in the past at the least expected of times and places...im casually walking down the stairs of the CCD with a friend while she is speaking about her dog being ill and needs to be taken to the vet and BAM!!!out of the blues i realise something wch wasent even on my mind then...
im watchin my fav tv soap and everyone around me are wondering who the serial killer who is goin on a killing spree for the past 150 episodes could be and in the middle of nowhere VOILA!! another realisation...sigh! thts how it usually goes...
dont ask me how...i dunno myself...im juss like that :-/
So it was just another boring day and i was busy doing nothing in particular whn my mom called me to help around the kitchen...and amidst all tht chopping of vegetables and the whistle of the pressure cooker, it happened yet again!
I realised something...something very important...something wch has long been creating havoc in my life..realised was and am being fooled and fooling myself for way too long and this has to stop somewhere...somehow!
and tht also made me realise tht im strong enough to see "the game once played" very cleary now...but it just dosent matter anymore..and yess there is no "probably" this time..:)

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Amidst all the realisations and reflections, my career plans are finally seeming to fall in place...2 months of holidays was more than enough and i cant carry on with this "lukhagiri" any longer...
So got about giving my first interview a few days back and the good news is i got the job...yeppers!! :D...so dr pri will be joining the hospital in a few weeks time...yaa probably will miss the bindaas holiday spirit im now enjoying...but thn again "all play and no work makes jill a lazzyy girl" isnt it?

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I juss heard from a good friend that one of our common friends attempted suicide...and to think we always thought he was a very happy person...
Tht made me believe juss a lil more in bollywood storylines...i dont know if i should go to see him or not...
even if i do, i dunno what to say to him...

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A close pal of mine has given up on the "love of her life" juss because her parents are not agreeing to their marriage because their family astrologer told them that their "kundalis" dont match...
i dont know what to say to her too...

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theres a new mall opened up and they couldent have chosen a worse time...i juss did a whole lotta shopping the past few weeks and my dad's goin to hit the roof even if i mention the "m" of "mall" now...sigh!

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someone i always have been considering a very good friend has got his priorities sorted...and im happy for him...
something i had quite expected to happen finally happened.so im not surprised...sometimes expecting the worst to happen helps if and when it eventually does...makes u feel kinda prepared for it.

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while some things are falling into place , some things in my life continue to fall out of place...but i know i'll have to learn to handle them...

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Seems like life is busy planning surprises (like it always has)...and i bet its feeling happy everytime it leaves me speechless...
still learning to deal with them...
The worst ones though are when it makes me surprise myself most!!!

Neverthless, as the song says...


cheers!!! :)

20 comments:

Blog Boy said...

Hi....
Victor Hugo: Sayings on Life
The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved... loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves.

Life is like tht and you expect the unexpected...
Congratulations on your new job...All the best....

What I can say is Life starts now... :)

Anonymous said...

Pri ke different shades in one single post. wow. good read and humurous too.

to start with congs for the job and pass on your contact details in case i need some showups to the doc. what better than a blog buddy. lolz

abt the marriage thingy abt ur friend, its sorry to feel that yet today the outdated astrology system continues to play the big role in the fate of 2 ppl who love each other. ufffffffff

i love the way you express yourself. keep updating, though i fear the loss of holiday spirits might result in lessening of frequency of postings :(

cheers

Ashu

Keshi said...

**..realised was and am being fooled and fooling myself for way too long and this has to stop somewhere...

I was too...now I hv overcome my foolish phase.. :) I dun let anyone make a fool out of me anymore.


TC hun!

Keshi.

KP said...

@pri...best wishes doc...I hope ur friends ignore this kundali systems...and go do it in a hindi movie style...i hope u visit the other dude...he will feel much better..."plz tell him dont give...there is life ahead of him..."

Princess said...

hi pri,

too many things are happening..
many many wishes for Dr.Pri...

all the very best..

much luv,
-Aiz.

relations said...

hey..
like bits and fragmants from everybody's life..
questions with no answers.. answers with no reasons.. reasons too unreasonable..

the initial part reminds me of the sher:
qasid ke aate aate ek aur khat likh kar rakh loon..
hum jaante hai wo kya likhenge jawaab me..
(qasid = messenger)
nice witing Pri..

Pri said...

@ blog boy
very nice lines u quoted there and very true!
thanks for the wishes :)

@ ashu
thanks ashu...will definitely try to keep up the blogging pace no matter how busy the schedule...afterall u juss cant give up on things u enjoy soo much...
like they say "thr should always be time enough to stop and smell the flowers" :)
As for the contact details, will definitely pass them on...u can always count on me for being both ur buddy and ur doc..(though wishin u the best of health,hope u never need the latter)...
About the astro thing, i cant quite believe it myself and am quite surprised tht someone can give up (on something wch can be so perfect) so easily juss because they werent born at a particular timing...its sad really!

@ keshi
true keshi...thr are times whn u are well aware tht its all a game and yet u wanna believe it...
and thn there comes a time whn u juss stop believing everything and everyone coming ur way...and all it takes is juss a simple realisation to go from the former into the latter...

tk care dear!

@ kp
sometimes its easier said kp...nobody tries to let go of life juss for the heck of it...we all know our thresholds and how much we can take before we reach tht "breaking point" and probably he knew his...
i will definitely be goin to meet him...but maybe whn he is strong enough to face friends.but one things for sure,whn i do meet him, il'l juss behave as if it never happened...because i do know thts wht i would have wanted my friends to do if i was in his place ...

@ princess
thanks a lot dear :)...
I agree too many things happening and this isnt even all.

tk care

@ relations
***questions with no answers.. answers with no reasons.. reasons too unreasonable***
i couldent have summed it up better...:)

annie said...

Dr Pri...Congratz for the job. Do shop at the new mall..u deserve too after sloggin with books.Doc is a noble profession but how do ya guys study so much. Phew!!

Compassion Unlimitted said...

Let it go..if its yours it will come back to you..otherwise it was never yours..famous saying remembering it helps !
New job.great good luck.
Never found a Doc emotional .U seem to be different .lol
TC
CU

Pri said...

@ annie
sigh! i wish more ppl thought like u (dadddd!! please read) :D

@ compassion unlimited
well,u shud stop typecasting doctors like tht...we are not thaat bad :(
and thn bout being emotional, its true tht our profession demands us not to show emotion as far as our patients are concerned...but even we r human, buddy! :)
tk care...

Compassion Unlimitted said...

Hey .that was just pulling ur legs..who can be more human than the Docs who try out everything to save a life.I have a great personal experience,though tragic
Sorry if i Hurt u
TC
CU

radiohead said...

your writings are quite comprehensive .. thts nice .. I think its hard to write long but meaningful posts .. u did that quite well ..

life is full of revelations and realisations .. ofcourse as they come all as surprises ..

keep scribbin gal
cheers
anuj

Cosmic Joy said...

I have a hard enough time trying to write on one topic, and here you are juggling with 9/10 in one post! I envy you :-)

BTW, congratulations and best wishes as you take the first steps to a successful career.

Sweetstickychewy said...

Interesting way of doing up ya post. I love how all things are in one. And i have to agree with ashu. so many shades of colours.

The amazing thing about this post is it shows there is always somethng good out of the bad things that happens to us.


Thanks for visiting ! cheeries!

Keshi said...

**and all it takes is juss a simple realisation to go from the former into the latter

so true! its a viscious cycle, unfortunately...

Keshi.

Keshi said...

**vicious

The Furobiker said...

aaila.. is post ka naam to Times of india hona chaiye tha... ya aaj tak... :D
itni sari khabar ek sath ;)

twilight said...

interesting read....and quite a lot of learning in what appears to be simple updates....rambling...hmmm!


I've never understood the whole ruckus created over kundalis either. why the hell do ppl fall in love if they were going to let kundalis decide their fate. beats me!

Pri said...

@ compassion unlimited
no problem buddy...all tken in good humour :)
im really sorry u had to go through a tragic experience...i can understand wht it must be like...

tk care

@ anuj
thanks anuj :)
i totally agree life stunning us with new surprises and shocks everyday...
it definitely has a pathetic sense of humour at times and somehow almost always the joke seems to be on us...

@ cosmic joy
thanks for the wishes cosmic :)
i definitely need them...
tk care

Pri said...

@ sweetstickychewy
thanks dear...great to have u drop by :)

@ keshi
i couldent agree more keshi...it indeed is a vicious cycle...

@ abhishek
oye! pehle kyon nahi suggest kiya??itna raapchik title tha...heehee
agli baar yaad rakhungi...post karne se pehle tumhe title ke liye contact zaroor karungi ;p

@ twilight
thanks dear...:)
its totally beyond my thinking powers too...its sad actually ppl still believe in these orthodox customs...and i agree, if they are so rigid minded, thn they really shouldent go tht way in the first place...