Wht the hell is wrong with me??? i wake up in the mornin, stretch lazily n scurry to my pc to check my mail...once thts done, come on to blogspot, try to put across some random thoughts which seem to be creatin havoc in my mind...failing miserably at it , i manage to type down some things wch dont make sense to either any of u or to me...yet i choose not to delete the post, wondering if u guys will take my insanity for philosophy...thn realising how pathetic my wishful thinkin is, i go back to my room...
"beep beep" goes my mobile asi look at the screen lazily, i see a notice sayin "2 new msges"...it being a lazzzy sunday ,i stretch again deciding whether i should juss put it away for later or make tht extra effort n press the small lil button wch says "open"...*yeah yeah, dont stare at me...i know im lazzyyy ...yawn*
ok so i did finally make tht extra effort which led me to hate myself for the next 10 minutes (sigh! i cant even hate myself for long )
I HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT "FRIENDSHIP DAY"...:((
dang! today was the 6th of august, n i hadent even realised , had juss blogged bout some crap which was not even remotely related to friendship...wht the hell!! hav i changed soo much...
OK ok so ul'l must be wonderin wht the big fuss is all about...but it is to me...this day has a great deal of significance in my life n i dont think ive ever forgotten it the last soo many yrs...n today 6th august 2006, i broke my record of the past ...sheesh!!!
Thn as usual, i went guilttripping...why was M remindin me tht it was the 5th yest...hav i unintentionally proved all my friends right inspite og going in denial mode everytime they said ive changed , tht i dont value their friendship as before...
GOD!! ofcourse not, now im exaggerating (i hope)...well i did go on a "happy friendship day" msging spree after tht...n yeah did feel a lil guilty whn 4 of my friends replied saying "wish u the same...thanks for remembering"...sheesh!! they dont spare me even on friendship day do they...thanks for the friendly sarcasm guys, juss remember tht i can do without it next time..hmph!
Anyways this post would hav been a really sweet post bout how friendships are the most essential element of life, n how i cant do without my friends :)
it wud hav been about all the things i soo very much cherish, all the friendships wch hav such a important place in my life , in making me the person i am today (good , bad or ugly ...heehee...ok ok juss kiddin ;p)
but thn i guess , ive spoilt the very mood by forgetting about it n i dont think i can undo that by writing a post, would be superficial n i would be the first one(and mebe the only one) to feel so...so juss being true to myself (*grin* dont look at me like tht...its not an excuse, im not tht lazzzyyy *scowl*)
But il'l tk this as an oppurtunity to thank all the lovely people who hav made a big difference in my life though some of you mite be hardly aware of it :)
Pri values all her friends tht are or hav been a part of her n she never will forget them come wht may...as for those who are no longer with me,it might be that
we may not speak for a day, for a month, for a year or maybe never get the chance to speak again in this lifetime...but the times we hav shared will always remain with me...the memories of friendship will forever be etched in this heart which has come across as rock to some and gold to others *smiles*
In life, we meet some strangers n thn we get to know thm a lil better...but its only a few tht we call as friends...
we promise never to go away, to always be there for each other...some live upto their promises, some juss break them n never turn back while a few life offers to break...and all we are left behind are those nostalgic moments...*smiles*
Whtever be the situation, a friend can never be forgotten even if it looks otherwise...:)
So learn to value the friendships in your life...and try never to hurt the heart of a friend ...cos as the old sayin goes "friendship is like china ware, costly rich and rare, once broken can be mended, but the crack is always there"
n this goes out to all my friends who im yet to meet ...
*** be my friend only if you are here to stay,
or else go back n come another day...
You can say "hi", or "hello" or ask me if im fine,
but dont call urself a friend, unless you are mine***
hmmm am i possesive??? ;p
Anyways have a rocking friendship's day and keep making friends...life is long and i definitely need friends along the way...so count me in!!
once again! hav a rocking day
CHEERS TO OUR FRIENDSHIP
TODAY N FOREVER...
hugsss
August 06, 2006
What is "truth" exactly??is it what we hear or is it what we like to believe?
Sometimes we know we are being fooled , yet somewhere we wish it to be the truth...n thn the heart just refuses to listen to our mind...
sometimes we know what we are in for, yet we dare to take tht extra step, go that extra mile knowing tht we maybe crushed along the way...
Ever wondered how the situation changes when we hav to face it...its really amazing but it gets a whole new perspective when we are involved than when someone who wants our advice is...why so???Guess thts the fallacy of being "emotional homosapiens" who supposedly are supposed to be far luckier than the so called "inferior species" because er..they hav a mind of their own...
but then again, are we really lucky?? or does it just add up to the confusion of whts beneath the tough looking calvarium? :) hmmm ...sets me pondering!
Coming beck to the topic, wht exactly is meant by "truth"...is it wht we realise or are made to realise based on evidence/proof/factual circumstances or is it the inner voice, the so called "gut feeling" (which sometimes can go dangerously wrong)...
well , according to me the former is all bout thinking with ur mind (the practical way wch unemtional people are supposed to think) and the latter is about thinkin with ur heart(as do the hero's in any karan johar flick *snigger*)
But what bout us confused homosapiens who do not understand wht to listen to...who do we trust?? "the practical mind" or "the sensitive heart"...whoaa ...its quite a mess...guess i should give up on thinking...but thn again , easier said than done right? :)
A friend told me recently that i think too much and that i should learn to chill and enjoy life as it comes...chill?? err..how exactly do u do that?? and does chilling promise us permanent peace of mind or rather should i say would it drive away all my thought processes...nahh!! i dont think so, its almost a "u can run but u cant hide" scenario...i guess ppl who think chilling out is a escape route should go get a reality check!! well , its true tht it does give u a temporary clear mind feelin...but thn how long??
Theres no thing like "avoidance", u cant avoid anything for long, it does come back to u :) ...so why do we even try??
guess "giving up" is part of human nature too *sigh*
Sometimes we know we are being fooled , yet somewhere we wish it to be the truth...n thn the heart just refuses to listen to our mind...
sometimes we know what we are in for, yet we dare to take tht extra step, go that extra mile knowing tht we maybe crushed along the way...
Ever wondered how the situation changes when we hav to face it...its really amazing but it gets a whole new perspective when we are involved than when someone who wants our advice is...why so???Guess thts the fallacy of being "emotional homosapiens" who supposedly are supposed to be far luckier than the so called "inferior species" because er..they hav a mind of their own...
but then again, are we really lucky?? or does it just add up to the confusion of whts beneath the tough looking calvarium? :) hmmm ...sets me pondering!
Coming beck to the topic, wht exactly is meant by "truth"...is it wht we realise or are made to realise based on evidence/proof/factual circumstances or is it the inner voice, the so called "gut feeling" (which sometimes can go dangerously wrong)...
well , according to me the former is all bout thinking with ur mind (the practical way wch unemtional people are supposed to think) and the latter is about thinkin with ur heart(as do the hero's in any karan johar flick *snigger*)
But what bout us confused homosapiens who do not understand wht to listen to...who do we trust?? "the practical mind" or "the sensitive heart"...whoaa ...its quite a mess...guess i should give up on thinking...but thn again , easier said than done right? :)
A friend told me recently that i think too much and that i should learn to chill and enjoy life as it comes...chill?? err..how exactly do u do that?? and does chilling promise us permanent peace of mind or rather should i say would it drive away all my thought processes...nahh!! i dont think so, its almost a "u can run but u cant hide" scenario...i guess ppl who think chilling out is a escape route should go get a reality check!! well , its true tht it does give u a temporary clear mind feelin...but thn how long??
Theres no thing like "avoidance", u cant avoid anything for long, it does come back to u :) ...so why do we even try??
guess "giving up" is part of human nature too *sigh*
August 02, 2006
"hello can i speak to dr pri please", said a voice on the othr side of the phone...
She was almost about to say wrong number and hang up when she realised that she was pri..."heyy results are out...you are now officially dr pri" said the happy voice...
Pri almost dropped the receiver down...it was a instant kodak moment...the kind the winner has after winning the miss india paegent...;p
yayyyyyyyyy...finally the years of turmoil had paid off...the tension , the stress had finally come to a culmination point...that one moment made her forget all the bitterness which was overruling her the past soo many days...and after a long time , she smiled from within...:)
it was one of those rare ocassions when you really smile from within...those kinda smiles wch reach ur eyes ...those rare ocassions whn u dont need to paste a plastic grin to face the world, you juss dont need to pretend ...cos you are really happy and nothin in the world can stop u from beaming...
She knew it wud happen someday, but the journey had seemed soo long n boring :D
there were times whn things got soo stressful tht she almost felt like givin up ...n then again life hadent been kind, it had come up wth its own stresses n tensions asif to say "lets see how much you can handle"...and the timing too had been wrong as always...
its true they say, sometimeslife derives its own sadistic pleasure by tryin to mess up things wch hav been already messed up...she had been goin through a lotta crap, notphysically but mentally...at times she felt she was goin insane...n all the while she juss hoped tht her personal life wud not mess wth her life othrwise
But wth god's blessings and her strong belief in god, she felt like a winner...she had emerged above all those distractions she had survived it...she was happy :)
"DR PRI"was all she could hear :) the satisfaction of attaining adream made her beam wth joy ...she had never really realised the importance of an exam until now...
all this while they had been juss exams, things to clear up and move on ...and "results" were never really soo big an issue...
but this time it had been different...things had been happenin which made her confidence dwindle...the "why's" n "how's" of life were haunting her and her othrwise positive attitude had been wearing off...but then again such things in life make you realise the importance of things wch othrwise dont matter much...
She smiled to herself and hurridly hung up ...she had to tell her mom first
"ur daughter is a doctor now---ive survived it ma" she said brushing a tear frm her face as she hugged her mom...nobody could understand wht she was talkin bout except her ma ...she gav her a hug "i knew you wud" and smiled...
Scared she might burst into tears again, pri rushed to her room...leaving behind a perplexed sis who was wonderin wht the big fuss was all bout...
"hmph..she dint even wait for me to congratulate her ...what the devil is wrong with pri???from when did exams and results become such a big deal, i always thought she was confident bout everythin"..and her ma dint answer this time, she smiled ...
looking in the bedroom mirror, pri stared hard at her tear stained face n thought to herself...
"dr pri...yess thts wht u are...n thts wht you will be from today...a doctor...a good doctor...juss a good doctor...thts it "
somehow she didnt feel like smiling anymore ...
She was almost about to say wrong number and hang up when she realised that she was pri..."heyy results are out...you are now officially dr pri" said the happy voice...
Pri almost dropped the receiver down...it was a instant kodak moment...the kind the winner has after winning the miss india paegent...;p
yayyyyyyyyy...finally the years of turmoil had paid off...the tension , the stress had finally come to a culmination point...that one moment made her forget all the bitterness which was overruling her the past soo many days...and after a long time , she smiled from within...:)
it was one of those rare ocassions when you really smile from within...those kinda smiles wch reach ur eyes ...those rare ocassions whn u dont need to paste a plastic grin to face the world, you juss dont need to pretend ...cos you are really happy and nothin in the world can stop u from beaming...
She knew it wud happen someday, but the journey had seemed soo long n boring :D
there were times whn things got soo stressful tht she almost felt like givin up ...n then again life hadent been kind, it had come up wth its own stresses n tensions asif to say "lets see how much you can handle"...and the timing too had been wrong as always...
its true they say, sometimeslife derives its own sadistic pleasure by tryin to mess up things wch hav been already messed up...she had been goin through a lotta crap, notphysically but mentally...at times she felt she was goin insane...n all the while she juss hoped tht her personal life wud not mess wth her life othrwise
But wth god's blessings and her strong belief in god, she felt like a winner...she had emerged above all those distractions she had survived it...she was happy :)
"DR PRI"was all she could hear :) the satisfaction of attaining adream made her beam wth joy ...she had never really realised the importance of an exam until now...
all this while they had been juss exams, things to clear up and move on ...and "results" were never really soo big an issue...
but this time it had been different...things had been happenin which made her confidence dwindle...the "why's" n "how's" of life were haunting her and her othrwise positive attitude had been wearing off...but then again such things in life make you realise the importance of things wch othrwise dont matter much...
She smiled to herself and hurridly hung up ...she had to tell her mom first
"ur daughter is a doctor now---ive survived it ma" she said brushing a tear frm her face as she hugged her mom...nobody could understand wht she was talkin bout except her ma ...she gav her a hug "i knew you wud" and smiled...
Scared she might burst into tears again, pri rushed to her room...leaving behind a perplexed sis who was wonderin wht the big fuss was all bout...
"hmph..she dint even wait for me to congratulate her ...what the devil is wrong with pri???from when did exams and results become such a big deal, i always thought she was confident bout everythin"..and her ma dint answer this time, she smiled ...
looking in the bedroom mirror, pri stared hard at her tear stained face n thought to herself...
"dr pri...yess thts wht u are...n thts wht you will be from today...a doctor...a good doctor...juss a good doctor...thts it "
somehow she didnt feel like smiling anymore ...
July 25, 2006
post "dissapearance act" :)
Back after a while...
A lot of things hav been keepin me busy n away the last soo many days...the most important being my exams goin on...
but a lot of things hav been happenin n i'd almost completely given up on bloggin...
yeah sure, somewhr deep within me i knew i wud be back n tht it wasent the end :)...but dint know whn...
Firstly im real sorry to all u guys who mailed, msged commented while i was away...thr r times in life whn u dont hav enough words to say wht u r goin thru or mebe u juss cannot say everythin is goin great :) n life the past few days has been soo hectic n busy tht i'd even stopped breathing for a while...*grin*
But pri is back...i missed u all , probably much morethan i was missed out here...
hope to catch up wth all u ppl n yeps am aware tht i hav to catch up on a lotta posts...i guess a lot of things hav happened while i was away...
exams were alrite...n now im havin my "pre-internship" break...internship's gonna start soon...keepin my fingers crossed n hopin for the best ahead...
Its a real relief to be free frm examtensions ...n im sure all of u hav gone thru this phase n know wht i mean...*grin*
but now wth a lotta time on my hands these days,am tryin to sort out my life---wch is juss being too stubborn at the moment...sigh!!
Hopefully pri isnt forgotten around here :)
assure to keep "nostalgic moments" posted...
cheers
A lot of things hav been keepin me busy n away the last soo many days...the most important being my exams goin on...
but a lot of things hav been happenin n i'd almost completely given up on bloggin...
yeah sure, somewhr deep within me i knew i wud be back n tht it wasent the end :)...but dint know whn...
Firstly im real sorry to all u guys who mailed, msged commented while i was away...thr r times in life whn u dont hav enough words to say wht u r goin thru or mebe u juss cannot say everythin is goin great :) n life the past few days has been soo hectic n busy tht i'd even stopped breathing for a while...*grin*
But pri is back...i missed u all , probably much morethan i was missed out here...
hope to catch up wth all u ppl n yeps am aware tht i hav to catch up on a lotta posts...i guess a lot of things hav happened while i was away...
exams were alrite...n now im havin my "pre-internship" break...internship's gonna start soon...keepin my fingers crossed n hopin for the best ahead...
Its a real relief to be free frm examtensions ...n im sure all of u hav gone thru this phase n know wht i mean...*grin*
but now wth a lotta time on my hands these days,am tryin to sort out my life---wch is juss being too stubborn at the moment...sigh!!
Hopefully pri isnt forgotten around here :)
assure to keep "nostalgic moments" posted...
cheers
May 14, 2006
a reflection
Its funny how life has this utterly irritating knack of keepin on remindin u about the things u soo much are tryin to forget, time n time again...
Like some ppl , im beginnin to believe life can be at its sadistic best sometimes...
Juss some realisations, a few masks uncovered, more stabs in the back than punches in the face n yeah, some misunderstandins wch hav led to understandin ppl a lil better...but one thing ive learnt is always be prepared for the hardest blow frm the person u tend to least expect it from...tht way it dosent hurt...yep its easier said than done...but thn no worries...if u hav any problem wth learnin how to, thts wht life's for...:)
reminds me of a beautiful verse i had read a long time ago...
"ansoon ko ankhon ki dehliz pe laya na karo,
apne gham kisi ko bataya na karo,
log mutthi bhar namak liye ghuma karte hain,
apne zakhm kisi ko dikhaya na karo"...
Like some ppl , im beginnin to believe life can be at its sadistic best sometimes...
Juss some realisations, a few masks uncovered, more stabs in the back than punches in the face n yeah, some misunderstandins wch hav led to understandin ppl a lil better...but one thing ive learnt is always be prepared for the hardest blow frm the person u tend to least expect it from...tht way it dosent hurt...yep its easier said than done...but thn no worries...if u hav any problem wth learnin how to, thts wht life's for...:)
reminds me of a beautiful verse i had read a long time ago...
"ansoon ko ankhon ki dehliz pe laya na karo,
apne gham kisi ko bataya na karo,
log mutthi bhar namak liye ghuma karte hain,
apne zakhm kisi ko dikhaya na karo"...
April 13, 2006
YEAH, IM WEIRD!... SO???
Found the very first post on one of my old lost blogs :)
it went sumthin like this...
***Who am i trying to run away from?....
The ppl who eventually realised who the real me is?...
Those pesky friends of mine who found their own way to my blog?
The ppl i thot i could trust and shamelessly disclosed my identity?...;)
I thought i dint care ...wht the heck!...neways the ppl who eventually realised who the real me is shud accept me as i am...
The pesky frenz who got their way thru my blog hav a rite to know wht i really feel
And the ppl i thought i trusted enuf to let know my real feelings....wht the f***k...dont i still trust them...?...:)
THEN WHY?...WHY AM I CREATING ANOTHER BLOG....???
Well i guess i can never be the "real me"...knowin tht the worlds gonna read my feelings, my emotions, my rantings...etc etc...
Be it be from family or frenz....i guess i need my own space...
Space to let go of my emotions...
Space to crib bout the uncertainities of life...n sometimes the certainities..;)
Space to type my innumerable rantings...
Space to disclose my myriad dreams and fantasies...
N most of all space to breathe...space to live...space to create a small lil world of my own..(so wht if its a blog world);)
Maybe eventually therell be ppl wholl find out its "ME" again
maybe those pesky frenz will find their way here again...
or maybe juss maybe Ill trust someone 2 let thm know ....
N THEN MAYBE...ill juss move on and create yet another blog....;)...(muhahaha****
And juss yesterday ,another very good friend of mine accuses me of not trustin enough...
and tht set me wonderin...
i havent changed much eh??
im still the same ...almost the same...sigh!!!
Maybe one day "nostalgic moments" will be gone too....*i hate to think tht way*.
but thn hasent tht been "typically pri" all this while...
whr hav all my prev blogs dissapeared...why hav they been shut down...???
why this post thn...n why do i feel very much the same way sometimes even today??...
who am i runnin from???
wht am i runnin from???
am i even running or juss makin a futile effort??
why this secrecy...this anonymity...whn i myself cannot comprehend it sometimes??
thrs no reason to be this way...yet why do i continue doin so??
am i crazy...insane...paranoid...or juss a lil extra cautious???
and if i am, thn wht is the extra caution for...why this blog? why "nostalgic moments".? why this sharing of ideas, of views??...
So much as i hav never really said it, i am in love wth "nostalgic moments" and all u ppl who frequent it...who dosent like being pampered??who dosent love being cared for??
but thn why am i afraid of losing it someday???...
i came across a beautiful line somewhr ---as we grow up , we lose ourselves as a person...very true!!
hav i lost the ability to trust, the confidence tht life can be beautiful...tht ppl can actually be sweet whn they seem to be...tht someone can genuinely be concerned or care ???...its sad ...but i think i hav :( and wht ive got in return is this crazy attitude ...this constant urge to remind myself tht ppl are juss fakin it whn they say or act tht they care...this feelin of takin 5 steps behind whn i feel the slightest clue of goin 2 steps towards someone...sigh!! will tht ever change...as much as i hate it, i feel a strange sense of security because of it...its bizarre i know...but i guess ive accepted it as a part of me...n sometimes i do feel sad bout it...not sad for the othrs (as my friends believe sometimes) but sad for me...its like hatin sumthin u know ull never part wth ...funny...eh??
Im not even the types who like to keep ppl guessing....though it may feel tht way at times....but believe me thts only cos i dont hav ne othr explanation for my weird behaviour...it confuses me as much as it does ull :(...
nor am i one of those ppl who hav those dark secrets or a extraordinary life wch they dont want othrs to find out about...thn why? why? why?...
i hate it MOST whn i confuse myself...!!! :(
n yet thrs no real want to change,
no real inclination to act othrwise...
bottomline: I GUESS PRI IS WEIRD...
(n she see's no desire or inclination of changing or improving...so il'l juss keep my fingers crossed and maybe an inkling of hope tht the world will change for pri...accept her for wht she is...if not!! god save the world and her :)
each as they go different ways...)
god bless and take care!
*smiles*
April 08, 2006
IN A NOSTALGIC TRANCE
Was listenin to one of my favs tracks....from the movie "lamhe"
goes like this...
yeh lamhe , yeh pal hum,
barson yaad karenge...
yeh mausam chala gaya toh,
hum fariyaad karenge ...:)
brought back a lot of memories and made me rummage through my closet to find this piece i'd written quite some time back...(yeah yeah, i know...some ppl hav weirdplaces assigned to store away their creativity...open my closet n ull find scraps of paper wth my most personal compositions written...strwen about amidst the mess of clothes )
yeah its true...times change, ppl change, situations change..but memories never...!!! :)
MEMORIES...
Memories of the past so good,
forget them all i wish i could.
True happiness i thot i'd found,
now its only memories to wch im bound.
Nostalgia floods me everyday,
as if to tell me it has sumthin to say.
Each time i feel i shudent hold on any longer,
i feel those memories gettin stronger.
The ghosts of yesteryears refuse to leave,
a web of dreams ive begun to weave,
and though i know it wont do me any good,
leave it all behind me i never really could.
Why am i being haunted this way?,
whn those memories hav nothin to say...
Why am i tempted to live in the past?,
whn i know tht it can never last...:(
The futures yet to see, but the presents mine,
and i hope someday everythin to be fine.
To face todays reality , i must dare,
coz livin in a fantasy is never really fair.
Everytime i try snappin out of the trance,
from reality i turn away my glance.
Every step away from it , i take infront,
my heart cant take it, i can feel the brunt!
My mind can never take my heart as a friend,
its a conflict thtll never end.
Both contradict each other in every say,
but hell! its always me who has to pay...!
memories are somethin forever...n however much you try to break loose from them...u can never succeed....or MAYBE u juss don wanna try hard enough cos u r scared tht u juss might...;)
goes like this...
yeh lamhe , yeh pal hum,
barson yaad karenge...
yeh mausam chala gaya toh,
hum fariyaad karenge ...:)
brought back a lot of memories and made me rummage through my closet to find this piece i'd written quite some time back...(yeah yeah, i know...some ppl hav weirdplaces assigned to store away their creativity...open my closet n ull find scraps of paper wth my most personal compositions written...strwen about amidst the mess of clothes )
yeah its true...times change, ppl change, situations change..but memories never...!!! :)
MEMORIES...
Memories of the past so good,
forget them all i wish i could.
True happiness i thot i'd found,
now its only memories to wch im bound.
Nostalgia floods me everyday,
as if to tell me it has sumthin to say.
Each time i feel i shudent hold on any longer,
i feel those memories gettin stronger.
The ghosts of yesteryears refuse to leave,
a web of dreams ive begun to weave,
and though i know it wont do me any good,
leave it all behind me i never really could.
Why am i being haunted this way?,
whn those memories hav nothin to say...
Why am i tempted to live in the past?,
whn i know tht it can never last...:(
The futures yet to see, but the presents mine,
and i hope someday everythin to be fine.
To face todays reality , i must dare,
coz livin in a fantasy is never really fair.
Everytime i try snappin out of the trance,
from reality i turn away my glance.
Every step away from it , i take infront,
my heart cant take it, i can feel the brunt!
My mind can never take my heart as a friend,
its a conflict thtll never end.
Both contradict each other in every say,
but hell! its always me who has to pay...!
memories are somethin forever...n however much you try to break loose from them...u can never succeed....or MAYBE u juss don wanna try hard enough cos u r scared tht u juss might...;)
April 05, 2006
IT DINT MAKE SENSE ...DID IT?
Today mornin saw me wake up in cold sweat!!!
It was around 3.30 am in the mornin (as per by my bedside watch) and i was surprised cos after a long long time i actually could remember wht i'd dreamt about and worse still! it dint make any sense...
Id read somewhere tht a person tends to remember only those dreams wch actually hav some sense associated wth thm...medical jargon speaks bout "REM" n "NON REM" sleep...but i always found the former theory more interesting ..and the philosophical dreamer tht i am crave to find a philosophical aspect to everythin ...i'd like to believe tht even the most bizarre dreams or nighmares ive woken up rememberin make sense...and if they dont , thn i simply dispose thm off sayin tht it was my subconciousmind tht was thinkin bout it sumwhr...:)
But yesterday proved me wrong...
I saw ppl i'd never seen in my life, names i'd never heard...
situations wch were very strange n uncanny...weird things happenin...no sequence at all...
It was funny...i havent seen such chaos in my dreams since a long long time...most of my dreams are very well organised and in sync (lol) unlike real life...
but this was strange, weird, totally ridiculously chaotic...
thr was confusion all around...it was soo bizarre...so messed up...kinda like er uh ..kinda like reality :(
And thn there were some instances i could relate to...but most of thm were irrelevant...more like those "ekta kapoor" soaps...lol!!
But hadent even watched much of tv yest...so thought i could rule out tht possibility...
I dont even know whethr i should call it a "dream" or a "nightmare" cos i cant really say it was good or bad...
it was juss weird...like some confused director directin a movie ...or shud i say "anu malik" tryin to compose a song wth a number of ideas frm various movies n finally comin up wth some disastrous crap like "dekho baarish ho rahi hain...its rainin , its rainin, its raiiinnniiing"...*rolls her eyes*
ok sorry sorry...tht was me digressin again...:p
but whtever, this really set me thinkin whethr wht we see in our dreams reflect the state of mind we are in...hmm thn i can imagine the mess goin about in my head rite now...god!!ive heard such things in movies...something bout ur past life tryin to send u a msg through ur dream...whoaa...im too freaked out rite now to even think bout reincarnation...:P so am juss pushin tht thought away...
Wht do u guys think?...any such experiences?
any such atrocious dreams/nightmares?
anysuch time whn ull woke up in cold sweat juss cos it was farr too confusin n mind bogglin to understand ur mind while asleep??
tell me about it...
want to know im not alone...
want to know im not goin crazy yet...*winks*
It was around 3.30 am in the mornin (as per by my bedside watch) and i was surprised cos after a long long time i actually could remember wht i'd dreamt about and worse still! it dint make any sense...
Id read somewhere tht a person tends to remember only those dreams wch actually hav some sense associated wth thm...medical jargon speaks bout "REM" n "NON REM" sleep...but i always found the former theory more interesting ..and the philosophical dreamer tht i am crave to find a philosophical aspect to everythin ...i'd like to believe tht even the most bizarre dreams or nighmares ive woken up rememberin make sense...and if they dont , thn i simply dispose thm off sayin tht it was my subconciousmind tht was thinkin bout it sumwhr...:)
But yesterday proved me wrong...
I saw ppl i'd never seen in my life, names i'd never heard...
situations wch were very strange n uncanny...weird things happenin...no sequence at all...
It was funny...i havent seen such chaos in my dreams since a long long time...most of my dreams are very well organised and in sync (lol) unlike real life...
but this was strange, weird, totally ridiculously chaotic...
thr was confusion all around...it was soo bizarre...so messed up...kinda like er uh ..kinda like reality :(
And thn there were some instances i could relate to...but most of thm were irrelevant...more like those "ekta kapoor" soaps...lol!!
But hadent even watched much of tv yest...so thought i could rule out tht possibility...
I dont even know whethr i should call it a "dream" or a "nightmare" cos i cant really say it was good or bad...
it was juss weird...like some confused director directin a movie ...or shud i say "anu malik" tryin to compose a song wth a number of ideas frm various movies n finally comin up wth some disastrous crap like "dekho baarish ho rahi hain...its rainin , its rainin, its raiiinnniiing"...*rolls her eyes*
ok sorry sorry...tht was me digressin again...:p
but whtever, this really set me thinkin whethr wht we see in our dreams reflect the state of mind we are in...hmm thn i can imagine the mess goin about in my head rite now...god!!ive heard such things in movies...something bout ur past life tryin to send u a msg through ur dream...whoaa...im too freaked out rite now to even think bout reincarnation...:P so am juss pushin tht thought away...
Wht do u guys think?...any such experiences?
any such atrocious dreams/nightmares?
anysuch time whn ull woke up in cold sweat juss cos it was farr too confusin n mind bogglin to understand ur mind while asleep??
tell me about it...
want to know im not alone...
want to know im not goin crazy yet...*winks*
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